I use to be so strong.

Friends?

Why is it that when I thought there were no more feelings involved
I saw something that hit my heart, made it fall to the pit of my stomach.
I confuse even myself cause I'm not suppose to care. what is this?
I feel angry but I honestly cant say why;
friends don't look at each other the way we did, or play,
or even those misunderstood kisses.
Just wow I guess.
its really time to let go...

New?

I figured I would make a new blog.
I felt like the old one held so many bad memories.
and I also felt like i couldn't breath. all those post held so much pain.
finally I had the courage to delete them. So here I am. new? I wish but no one in my eyes can become new. you still drag along these dreadful thoughts. well at least I do,

Dead Rose.

Our love was like a rose,
as time passed the peddles fell.
one by one for each argument,
tear and lie.
Thorns became more sharp.
As the last peddle slowly detached itself,
We had ended.
Only a stem left,
discolored and fragile.
So now whoever touches will be prickled.
Cause I will never open up.
My thorns are to strong to give up again.